Months and frustration

I have decided to publish this blog. We had originally wanted to wait until we were through the first trimester of a healthy pregnancy, but I have decided that there is positive that can come out of posting about a bit of emotional and physical setbacks.

So, to update, we were getting life back to normal and diets back in shape. Then, on December 10th, we were struck by a drunk driver. I hurt my knee, but it seemed things were going to be alright, even if we were sore and not able to workout like we wanted to.

On the 23rd, I was rushed into the ER. Apparently I had been pregnant. For whatever reason, be it stress from the accident or another reason that the doctors were unable to determine, I lost the second baby in three months. It was, even harder for me the second time. I was out a car, out the money for the hospital bills and the like. It was extremely crushing and I backslid on my diet and on many things needed to make a happy druid wife.

But, as the new year turned over, I struggled and decided that wreck, loss, layoffs wouldn't make me fret. I needed to keep focused and wanted to put myself back on track.

I got back down to my pre-pregnancy weight and got back into eating paleo. I was feeling better

But, I found that there were so few resources on miscarriage. I found dozens of discussions online, but none of it was helpful. My doctor didn't want to see me in the office, for reasons the nurse said were to "help me not feel depressed to keep seeing all the pregnant women there". So, I was stuck with phone calls that would be answered days later, if at all, telling me I was "normal". And so I sat at home with questions, worries, fears and no place to turn.

Which is what inspired me to start doing research and open, frank discussion on the topic of fertility and loss. At least it seems in America that so many families go through this and yet there is so little discussed on the topic. It seems like there is a fear, a discomfort with discussing pregnancy loss and fertility problems. It is, a very personal situation and everyone will deal with it in their own way, but I think it is a disservice to women everywhere to not have a place to discuss their concerns, sadness and recovery.

Hopefully, this will be a place where I can post information and helpful links about being healthy, getting information about fertility, and how to move back into good health after loss. And hopefully a place where people can share their stories.